A different point of view - del 26 |
Kap 26
Airi:
I tried everything to talk to Jerre, but he seemed to ignore the hell out of me.
He was ignoring me, The back of my damned head said.
I tried everything these past school days, I even tried to give him lunch but he refused by simply shaking his head. So I gave all of them to his friends who were willing to take it.
It was sad at lunch times, we had such a pretty routine and I sort of knew he missed it.
He did miss my food, I thought smiling.
I couldn’t even meet him after school because of his work. He seemed to work a lot these days. And the school banquet was about to start, that made me think of something else than Jerre.
With whom should I go out? Certainly not Pedro, but not either Jerre, I thought. Trying to remember different people whom I knew, that were when I realized, they all had girlfriends.
What should a young maiden like me do in a Saturday day? I thought, even let out a sigh.
Well, not that I’m a young maiden, I might be over hundred years old, lost the count
But I wouldn’t sit here and sulk, so I stood up and changed cloths, and went straight out.
On my way out, I brought my mobile. Dialing the number to Kaname, it did not take that long for him to answer the phone.
“I know where your headed too, I’ll see you there” He said once our phones where connected, and after saying that he disconnected it, before I could say anything.
“He knows exactly what I think,” I said out laud.
I went straight where we were to meet; it was outside a café, more likely, a coffee shop.
I could see Kaname sitting on one of the chair outside. He sat quite gracefully, and had his coffee on the table.
I slapped my face and smiled at the same time, Stop thinking about paranoid stuff idiot! I thought.
I went straight to him and sat on the chair in front of him. He didn’t even look up, he seemed to notice that it was I.
Of course, who else would sit next to a stranger, idiot I thought again.
“Hey there” I said, to strike a conversation.
He looked up and I could see a faint smile.
“You did it,” He said in his cold tone.
I sulked, “And now he’s ignoring me”
“That sounds good” He replied, teasing me, or maybe not, he seemed to like it.
“Well it isn’t good for me,” I snapped right after him.
He gave a painful gesture, “Where did you bite?” He asked.
I blushed at that moment, I didn’t want to say it to him, “On the lips…” I looked down to embarrassed to look at him.
I could hear him sigh, “That’s the best spot you could find?”
I looked up at him and saw him frowning.
But it really hit me, I missed Jerre. I didn’t want him to be afraid of me, I never even asked for this! I don’t want to be a monster.
“Deep in thoughts as usual” He said, breaking me free from the painful thoughts.
“It hurts”
“I understand,” He said.
That’s what made me mad, he did not understand.
“How can you understand?!” I said out aloud.
I could even notice people looking our way, but Kaname seemed normal, he even took a sip out of his coffee.
“You haven’t even bitten someone close to you!” I said again.
This time, he looked at me for a long time. His warm face turning cold all of a sudden, it sent shivers down my spine.
I straightened myself and sat normally.
“I’m so-“
“Don’t,” He said in his cold tone.
“I’m just sad that I lost a friend because of being a monster”
He kept quiet.
“I mean, the memories we shared together, the new friends I made. Am I going to loose them all because of being a hideous vampire!” I exclaimed
I could see he started looking hurt, he was hurt.
“Kaname! Why do you always look hurt whenever I tell you how much I hate vampires?”
He looked away at that instance.
“Kaname!” I pleaded.
“This discussion is not allowed outside.”
“Why? Do you like vampires?” I asked, “It seems so!”
Then his head snapped at this way, it felt like he was looking through me.
It gave me guilty feeling because of his sad face. It felt like he was trying to say something to me but he just wouldn’t.
“Don’t you trust me?” I asked, suddenly hurt.
Why won’t he ever tell me what’s on his mind? Why does he always keep quiet and listen to my problems? Why does he always be there for me? These thoughts gave me tears.
Because he is doing it for me, The back of my head interrupted.
Before the tears could even fall Kaname was right in front of me, wiping the tears away.
“You are the one whom I trust with my whole heart,” He said.
I clenched my fists, trying not to cry anymore.
I guess I really do love him, yet I was the one who was cruel I thought.
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| Kommentarer - (Snittbetyg: 5) | blackgirl - 13 apr 10 - 20:44- Betyg:  | näe stackars airi hon är ju helt nedbruten
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